Code Capture 11542-7

At times I find that it is beneficial to stop and look at one’s progress thus far, before continuing forward…

Lately, it seems as though that is what I’ve been going quite frequently.  It is very important to know where you are going, but often you can find yourself lost if you do not remember where you began.

I’d be lying if I were to say that I haven’t been busy as of late.  What with the recent flux of awakenings, Cypherite activity, new members of the organization, reading reports, filing reports, e-mailing reports, issuing rewards fpr conduct, and signing off on operations to take place within the Matrix, there are times when I feel as though my head is going to explode.  I find myself jacking in more and more often just to escape the paperwork.

While the Matrix does not compare to some of the vacation constructs that Zion has, there are certain places that I never tire of, for aesthetic and sentimental reasons.  But therein lies a question in itself… how can one be sentimental over something that does not  exist?  Nothing more than a digital image.  The answer, of course, is the same as one finding a favorite digital photo that they enjoy staring at.  Both are very comparable.

 When I jack in to disappear from the ship for awhile, I often meditate on the most primal and probably common questions.  “Where is all of this headed?” or “What is my purpose?”

But then again, I know my purpose.  My purpose is to give others their purpose.  A man with a tuba, a woman with a flute, a gentleman with a slap bass… they all have their purpose… to create music.  I’m merely the one attempting to conduct them in a seamless fashion.  Whether I am successful in this task can only be determined by listening to the quality of the music they play.

And then there are the operatives not within my organization…

I was asked recently why I spend any time speaking with operatives that do not follow the same path as I.  It is a good question, and one I found myself contemplating before answering.

Personally, I believe that almost every operative, regardless of affiliation, wants the same thing… peace.  The differences between us all are our agreements on the methods used to acheive it.  To press arrogance and ignore diplomacy… to ignore rather than speak to… to quickly insult rather than attempt politeness… is to step away from peace.  That is something I find futile… because I know which direction I am going.

 

~ by zeissman on May 16, 2007.